Unknowingly I've been working for 5 weeks. Working as a pharmacist ain't as bad as I envisioned. Days become more fulfilling as I am somewhat needed in a sense. Of course, I am totally dispensable.
This training has taken up most of my could-have-been-unoccupied time. I am glad because at least I have something productive to do and I feel less useless & unneeded. But I am missing my friends at the same time.
I'm making time to catch up with those who matter to me but sadly, they are all really busy people. I kinda understand their situations but I'm not going to lie that I feel neglected, well.. at times.
It sucks to see that they are out with other people but yet they have no time for you. That just makes me wonder what I could do to make myself more deserving of their time.
By the end of this post I am feeling quite shitty. It's like I no longer have anybody whom I feel comfortable intruding. Or just somebody who would be such a major part of my life anymore. I know I should be more independent & not demand so much attention. But leading such a solitary life is really hard.
Does anybody understand me??
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